Thursday, February 7, 2013

I Love Sue Heck--and other revelations of the past year



I LOVE Sue Heck. She's the geeky teenager on "The Middle."  The world conspires to bring her down, but most of the time she's oblivious. On the occasion that it does register, her extreme optimism buoys her spirit in a timely manner. She's geeky in a way that isn't cool—cool as in being a book or science or music nerd or wearing rectangular, boldly rimmed glasses. No, Sue's not particularly intellectual nor notably gifted. Her hair's stringy, her figure non-descript, her clothing choices bad—in an un-artistic way. She's socially inept.

Just oh, sooooo average.

Yet with all that's not going for her (and with emotions that run the gamut) there's no denying it:  she reeks of joy.  

She knows about things, feels things most of her peers don't care about—but perhaps should.

I hope they never make her character cool.

Yes, I love Sue Heck.

On the topic of Oma Heidenstecker's grave (which I realize is a stretch)…I had a need to sit at my grandmother's marker the last time I visited my family. That's when Tante Helga told me it no longer exists.  Apparently in Germany you get fifteen to twenty years (depending on whether there's a living spouse) to visit your loved ones before they make room for someone else's loved ones. I wish I had known that the last time I could have but didn't visit…

My aunt also told me about the time my grandmother tried to end her life. She was irritated with my grandfather (not unusual) so she marched out into the middle of the street and waited for a car to hit her. Unfortunately, there weren't many cars on that particular road in those particular days. So after an hour, she gave up.

That shouldn't make me laugh, but it does.  It's sort of Sue-Hecklike.

This past year I've been reminded that whether it's Woodstock, VA, or Haiti, the world's not a level playing field. On the other hand, I've discovered that God's love is.

For anyone out there who has considered sponsoring one of the children in Haiti, here's the Heart of God Haiti website.  Every penny of your $30 goes directly to the children. There was a day while there, when I couldn't hold back tears. I'll never forget what Junior (our translator) said to me.  "Lisa," he said, "I could take you to places where you would never stop crying."
 
And I knew he was telling the truth. So, I tried to keep Theodore Roosevelt's words in mind: 
 
"Do what you can, with what you have, where you are."
 
Yes, these are the declarations/revelations of the past year…and maybe no one cares about them but me…and maybe it's already February and I'm a month late and a dollar short…

But I'm always late.  And a dollar short.  Still, life is good because there is a Grand Plan and I'm not in charge of it.
 
No homecoming queen here:).
Yup, I'm a card-carrying optimist.

It's part of my geeky-yet-not-cool being who sometimes hides behind a non-geeky façade. I'm thinking there are LOTS of not-cool geeks out there. Sidekicks, even. The urge to sing Glenda the Good Witch's song is strong: come out, come out, wherever you are…
 
Maybe it's time to let our Geek Flags fly!
 
To all the Sue Hecks out there—stay dense, stay strong.

Stay optimistic and joyful.

All in Goodwill,
~Lisa

17 comments:

  1. Flying my geek flag, somedays higher than others. Love this picture of you, you not only have outward beauty, it also fills your heart and soul.

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  2. To tell you the truth--I'm happier now being a geek than I was when I was Sue Heck's age! Long may my Geek Flag fly! Your story here inspires all kinds of emotions, as your writing always does for me. Your picture is beautiful--through and through.

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    1. I think that's the case for most of us, Verna:).

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  3. Sue Heck is so endearing! She's so annoyingly optimistic you can help but LIKE her! I think I used to be her, before loneliness and the need to be cool and popular took over.

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    1. Cat, I have full faith in your ability to reclaim your optimistic geekiness...

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    2. And I have full faith in Jesus' ability to lead me there.

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  4. I can appreciate the wisdom of Teddy Roosevelt and I LOVE the grand plan and the One in charge (and His Love).

    (smiling at the picture and this blog) -- will there be a Geek Flag Sorority?

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    1. I'm thinking we do need a club of some kind--not that it would be cool or anything.

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  5. You know, Folks, the Cheese stands alone often ,too! And I am that cheese. However, aged cheese becomes ever more desirable with its strength, its density, its color, flavor, its texture, its marrying ability in food, its undertones, etc.

    Having been designated The Cheese, one earns the right to be cheesy, stinky, mellow and mild, sharp, moldy, dense or light, smooth or silken!

    So in your Geekiness or Cheesiness, find that sweet spot out of the middle of the flag or the round; or better yet, your heart and spread the wealth.

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  6. I was usually the uncool geek. Sometimes extremely so. If uncool geekiness had been an extreme sport, there are a lot of days I'd almost have won a gold medal. But not quite, because that would have been a measure of coolness.

    I struggled to be cool. I finally achieved it, sort of, for a while. Then my world came crashing down, I gave up and went back to God, and was pronounced uncool by my friends. Over time, as I got comfy with who I am, and decided to not sweat it, and just love people, I found myself being treated as cool. Only I no longer cared.

    Just being able to not care if I;m cool is so cool.

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  7. Lisa, your blogs are always so insightful and deeply revelatory! For some reason I'm sitting here in tears -- I've always been so much like Sue Heck. Unimposing. In the shadows. Unpopular. Unaccepted. Different. Certainly not one who was sought-out. I struggled with it for years. It's called "rejection" and it stunted my growth in every area. Then the blinds came off my eyes one day in an instant. I am accepted by the One who loves me most. He has lavished His love on me to the point that it really doesn't matter what I look like, what physical flaws I have, or the fact that I couldn't even pay a boy to take me to my senior prom. I'm accepted and although the day of awakening is many years past, I'm still learning to accept myself. I'm strong and unmovable in my faith--that's never been an issue. Loving others has never been an issue. But learning to love myself has been a lifetime journey. Jesus summarized the law and taught us this: "`Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: `Love your neighbor as yourself.'" (Matt 22:37-39). It's those last two words that have always been my stumbling block..."as yourself".

    All that to say I'm still on this journey to not care about me and to love myself with the same love I have for others. Somewhere along the way I got it all tangled up but God, the Great Untangler, is teaching me it's okay to be Jan Ross--He loves me with an everlasting, divine love that fills every need to be accepted. And, if He loves me that much, surely I can accept who He created me to be. After all, how dare I not love one whom He loves so deeply! I'm accepted by the One who loves me most!

    And, that's cooler than cool! :)

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  8. Jan, those verses are the ones I find myself quoting more than any others. Both to myself and others.

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  9. I love Sue! She is hilarious...in an awesome way! We all have our own geekiness, don't we? Geeks rule!

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